2019, an award winning year.

The award for the most productive, yet dysfunctional year goes to “2019”! This year began with me quitting my job to become a full time boss of our small business and a part time Office Manager for a construction company. Yay me! But it came with serious budget reviewing, cutting back on bar life and…

I am not brave, I am broken.

For the past several months I have been told that I was a brave and strong person. That how I handled my father’s illness then death was amazing. My composure through all of this and how I kept it together was brave of me. Little do you know, I was dying inside and my soul…

Eulogy to my Dad

Being the only daughter, surrounded by boys and the youngest of 5 was not easy. But my dad made it to where I was always included and taught me how to be strong as a little girl and then as a woman, both in faith in God and out in the world. I was definitely…

4:22 PM

Sitting in the cafeteria of a hospital with a half eaten cheeseburger in front of me. Sipping on lemonade wishing I had an airplane bottle of vodka to pour in it. Playing the waiting game. Wondering about the “what if’s”. Listening to the mumble conversations around me. There’s a woman sitting in a corner booth…

My daily routine is ever changing.

We all have a daily routine. You start your day with a cup of coffee, hit the street with a jog, go to the gym, some meditation or maybe morning sex. You then hit the shower, get dressed for work or play, have another cup of coffee (I prefer my 2nd cup to be iced),…

This is 49.

Lately, I have been thinking hard about turning 49 years old and it’s freaking me out. It’s like turning 7 years old, you’re not a little kid, but yet you’re not a big kid. Did you feel that way? For someone who has always enjoyed celebrating her birthday, this one is different. I use to…

Throw those bricks, but the joke is on you.

The bricks that have been thrown at me, I am using them to build myself up higher and stronger. Last week I shared a photo on Instagram that revealed a very raw part me that not many see, actually only one other person sees, my husband. I showed my mid section with all the rolls…

From Extrovert to “Outgoing” Introvert

There have many signs that I have changed how I see things, people and mostly myself. My days of entertaining came to a halt a few years ago. Going out with friends was more than likely not going to happen. I began to feel content it just being me and the husband. We traveled more…

Honest feelings…RAW.

Let’s see how can I start this without it going South. Oh, who the fuck cares! Here it goes. I was honest with someone and they didn’t like it. What happened to constructive criticism and being truthful about your feelings? What happened to letting things out to make them better? WTF happened to HONESTY? When…

Finding the quiet time…

These past few weeks I have hustled to get Mancave Toyz into a few local stores and added us to a few events for the next 2 months. It’s been great and I am grateful. I have also started to create my own line of leather and wooden accessories. The response is a bit slow…

Becoming a full time BOSS BABE!

There’s a logic that in order to find yourself you have to lose yourself. And that is exactly what I did and what I am finding is amazing! I resigned from my “full-time” position at the roofing company and became the BOSS BABE for Mancave Toyz. I enjoyed my job and my employers were very…

Improving

The last of the holiday confetti has fallen and the new year begins with many resolutions and new beginnings. But what did I learn from the old beginnings and old resolutions? I’ve learned to move forward daily with hope, faith and health. What about Love? Oh, that’s there everyday and it’s called loving me! Loving…